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Sep. 25th, 2005 @ 09:40 pm it's all good
Current Mood: content
Current Music: who's line is it anyway in the background
things are going well. i'm still really good friends with jake. i just hope he's has happy with it as i am. i can't imagine if we stopped talking.

nothing else is really going on. i'm kinda bored right now. i just got off work not too long ago, and now i have to finish up a paper. call me sometime if you wanna hang and i actually have time.

KT
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Sep. 15th, 2005 @ 11:18 am it was bound to happen
i always do this. i care so much that i run them off. i finally get something great in my life, and i fuck it up. he was perfect, and i always thought he could do better than me, and now he's no longer mine. we haven't officially ended things, but he's trying so hard to make me happy, i feel he's not telling me how he really feels. it hurts so much when the one you care about no longer cares about you. i just dont know what to do with myself.

i'm sorry i couldn't be what you need. i'm sorry i was a waste of time for you. i never meant to hurt you. you were amazing and i took that for granted. all i really needed was to know that you cared. that's all. but i guess i just didn't cut it.
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Sep. 12th, 2005 @ 10:05 pm Do I have to....
Current Mood: confused
Why is it that lately I have to be basically perfect just to make everyone happy. Is that the case? Honestly, to everyone that actually reads this, do I have to be perfect just to make you happy? Cuz I just don't know anymore.
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Sep. 11th, 2005 @ 04:38 pm I'm better now
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: none
I'm doing better than I was on my last post. I was just worried about a few things, but everything is getting better.

I got a new car just recently. It's nice. It has better gas mileage than my other car, but now i have to sell the old one. I know Jake's bro was looking for a car, so if he's reading this, make sure you make a bid a.s.a.p. cuz reese has it up on ebay. it's really not that bad of a car. it's got it's problems like all cars, but it's good on gas, and the insurance is not all that much. I'm not sure what it is, but the last i heard it was 60 a month. so that's nice. just let us know if you're interested. like i mentioned to you, we were looking for $1500, but reese said he would sell it to you for $1300, and i'm sure we could set up payments if we had to. just so you know.

KT
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Sep. 9th, 2005 @ 11:22 am What to do
Current Mood: nostalgic
Current Music: i can still feel you - idk
i don't really know what to talk about. things are...i don't know..weird right now. i'm not quite sure what to do.

my job is going well. i'm just so used to arbys and constantly having to work. at circuit city, i'm mostly just standing there and waiting for someone to buy something or return something. it's really quite boring as of right now. i know once the holidays start up, we'll be busier, but right now, it's just slow as hell. grrr...

school is fine. i'm only there about 4 hours a day, so that's nice. my work and school schedules on mondays and wednesdays have worked out to make me away from home from 8:30 in the morning til 10:30 at night, so that's nice.

i wish he was here...
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Sep. 4th, 2005 @ 11:28 pm ahhh....life
Current Mood: peaceful
Current Music: jimmy eat world - your house
life is good as of right now. i like my job for the most part. it's just a lot to memorize, so it's kinda hard at times, but i'm getting by.

no school tomorrow due to labor day. yay! which means i have time to do the homework i didn't do for my math and english classes.

other than that, things are just peachy. jake and i are still together, so that's always good.

well, i'm out. i need sleep

LOVE ALWAYS,
KT

p.s. bladder infections suck!
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Sep. 1st, 2005 @ 11:56 pm Update.
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: nlsaijglsajl;
Mom's home! yay! she had some sort of food poisoning, and she's all good now. well, she' still on medication, but at least now she can keep it down. I was so worried, and i actually worried other people, which doesn't happen very often. to those of you, i'm really sorry. i didn't mean to do that. but i was kinda afraid that she was going to die. seriously. i know it's not likely, but when i saw her monday morning before she went to the hospital, i actually saw her crying cuz she was so sick, and she didn't know what to do, and she was scared. that's what scared me the most. but she's ok now, and that's all that matters.

in other news, i have a new job. i dont know if i've mentioned that already, but i did. i work at circuit city in crystal lake. i really like it there. everyone is really nice, even my boss. theres like 10 so that's weird but cool. i just have a lot to memorize, and that kinda sucks, but it's all good.

so to everyone that cares, i'm sorry if i worried you, and comment or something if you're still alive. i never hear from anyone anymore. :( it's kinda sad. just let me know that you're still breathing.

LOVE ALWAYS,
KT
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Aug. 30th, 2005 @ 01:29 am Mom
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: none
i dont know what to do. my mom went to the hospital today, and is staying the night. we don't know what's wrong with her, and it scares me. i can't sleep, and i can't stop crying. i really need someone to hold me.....i just feel so miserable. someone shoot me...
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Aug. 28th, 2005 @ 12:52 pm The new job
Current Mood: giddy
Current Music: what ever my brother is playing
things are going well at circuit city. i closed yesterday, and i learned how to do that. with the amount of times we had to recount the registers cuz they kept being counted wrong, i know how to close a register like the back of my hand. it's great!

things are going well with jake. today is the 5 month mark, so that's awesome. it sucks cuz i haven't seen much of him this week. i kinda miss him. :( well, i'll see him later today. yay!
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Aug. 24th, 2005 @ 11:37 pm School
Current Mood: sore
Current Music: dontcha - pussy cat dolls
well, i'm officially in college. i'm almost done with a whole week of it. yay! i love english and math. i know, weird to hear from me, but it's true. my english teacher is awesome, and my math teacher is ok, but i love the book layout. all i have to do is take notes, and i'm set. as soon as i write it down, i know what to do, and i can do my homework. i'm not really liking my graphic arts class. i mean, i haven't really started it yet i guess but i dont know anyone, and i'm not looking forward to some of the stuff that's in it. i dont know. it's hard to explain. and my MCC 101 class is a waste of an hour and 20 minutes! it's so boring. i'm glad it's only one night a week.

other than that, life is great. jake and i are great as usual. nothing to complain about, except i'm having some money problem cuz i'm just leaving one job and then starting a new one, so i'm scared that i wont be able to make my next payment for college, and if i don't i'll get dropped. hopefully i don't.

TTYL
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Aug. 22nd, 2005 @ 01:06 am (no subject)
Current Mood: i'm so stupid
Current Music: commercial
why do i always do this. just when things are going great, i fuck it up. i have an amazing boyfriend. one that treats me better than i could ever imagine, and i fuck it up. things were fine, but my paranoia got the best of me. with school starting tomorrow, and him starting in a week, i'm so scared that things are going to change. like he's going to get sick of me and i'll lose him. but i should know by now that he loves me and wouldn't do that. i made him really aggrivated today, and i know i shouldn't have done that. he makes me so happy, and i look forward to the fact that i still have him. why can't i just stop thinking so negatively all the time? from now on, no more. i'm going to look at the brighter side of things. if i keep thinking the way i do, i'm going to mess up everything for sure. jake, i love you soo much, and i'm sorry for the paranoia. i promise it wont happen again.
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Aug. 19th, 2005 @ 10:53 pm just do it
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: mortal combat sounds
1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
( my answers )
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Aug. 18th, 2005 @ 04:07 pm There gonna do it....in the BUTT! hehe
Current Mood: content
Current Music: phones ringing
so how is everyone? good to hear...or read...or whatever.

i'm doing well. i might be getting a new job at circuit city in crystal lake, so that'll be nice. but i'm not in yet, so i wont get my hopes up.

not much else to say. just killing time before i go to work.

"love me or hate me.....you decide...."

*yeah i dont know where the quote came from. i just felt like it.

KT
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Aug. 16th, 2005 @ 10:32 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: what the FUCK!
Current Music: dont worry (how ironic) - shedaisy
awww...the feeling of relief is great....too bad i wont feel it for awhile. i've never been so stressed out. i think it making me sick. i dont know what to do. i mean i have an amazing boyfriend, and a job (shitty one, but a job none the less), and i've got two interviews coming up, so i'm bound to get a new job soon. i dont know. i've got a lot on my mind.

someone help me....
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Aug. 12th, 2005 @ 04:07 pm Freeport
this sucks. jake is going away for the weekend, and i can't even talk to him on the phone while he's gone. he's going to be in freeport, and the cell phone charges will be too high for us to talk or text. FUCK! i'm going to miss him so much.



I hope he misses me too.....
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Aug. 9th, 2005 @ 01:12 am (no subject)
Current Mood: all over the place
Current Music: my fat ass baby loves to eat - stewie
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! yeah i dont know. i'm in a really crazy mood. i'm really hungary, but i'm too tired to eat, but i'm really hyper at the same time. i'm kinda confused. i'm all over the place.

on another note, things are going well. jake is AMAZING! i dont know what i'd do without him. he treats me like a queen, and i still have a hard time understanding why. all i know is that i love him. what can i say?

LOVE ALWAYS,
KT
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Aug. 6th, 2005 @ 02:14 am (no subject)
Current Mood: it's jake..what else can i say
Current Music: ringtone for phone - jake's message
wow! i haven't writen in a while. maybe i should.....maybe....well, i guess i already am, so that decision is taken care of.

just got back from ashley ross's b-day party. it was pretty cool. we rented a couple of movies. constantine and cursed. constantine i've already seen, and it was pretty good, but cursed was aweful. it wasn't a horror flick, it was a comedy, and that kinda sucked, but there were some actually funny part in it, i'll give it that.

jake and i are doing great. couldn't be happier. he went to the party too, and we got the play with a guinee pig. it was sooo cute! hehe

well, nothing else to say. ttyl

LOVE ALWAYS,
KT
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Jul. 30th, 2005 @ 05:49 pm Please Comment!


Your Seduction Style: Siren / Rake





You possess an unbridled sensuality that appeals to many.
The minute you meet anyone, you can make the crave you almost immediately.
You give others the chance to lose control with you... spiraling into carnal bliss.
A dangerous lover, you both fascinate and scare those you attract.






You Are Somewhat Honest





You do tend to tell the truth a lot

But you also stretch the truth on occasion

You figure a little lie isn't a big deal

As long as it doesn't hurt anyone too much!





Your Kissing Purity Score: 54% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing

Lip to lip action makes your heart sing



Your Power Color Is Indigo

At Your Highest:

You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you.

At Your Lowest:

You require a lot of attention and praise.

In Love:

You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are.

How You're Attractive:

You're dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic.

Your Eternal Question:

"Does This Work Into My Future Plans?"



Your IQ Is 95

Your Logical Intelligence is Above Average
Your Verbal Intelligence is Average
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional
Your General Knowledge is Average

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Jul. 26th, 2005 @ 11:17 pm Job Interview
Current Mood: energetic
Current Music: kelly clarkson - walk away
so i have two job interviews this week. i have one at the best buy in crystal lake, and one at this office in crystal lake. i'm really excited. i hope this means i'll get a new job. i'm so sick of arbys it's not even funny. i'm hoping that if i get a job that i can finally QUIT ARBYS! yay! no more nancy, dana, or jenni. woo hoo! tomorrow is my interview at best buy. wish me luck.

other than that, i'm good. jake is so wonderful. i can't imagine life without him.

tomorrow is officially the last day of summer school. yay! no more school til the 22 of august. one thing that i found out that was cool is that my friend ashes is in my math class. of all the days and times, we pick the same one. cooly.

well, nothing else to say. ttyl

LOVE ALWAYS,
KT
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Jul. 23rd, 2005 @ 01:36 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: content
Current Music: washing machine
hmmm....what do i really have to say. i don't have work til 6 and i'm only working for 3 hours. but on the bright side, i have an interview at circuit city on tuesday. the only problem is that it's in gurnee. so that's going to take me a good 35 minutes to get there, but hey. if they give me more hours, and i get more than 6.20 an hour. i'll be happy. yes, i'm being paid UNDER minimum wage for 18 year olds. i told my boss and she claims that she didn't know that i was 18. the fuck she didn't. i told her weeks before my b-day that i would be 18. didn't know my ass.

anyways, i'm looking forward to the job interview. i hope i get the job. wish me luck! i'm definately going to need it. well, i'm going to go rearrange my room. ttyl

LOVE ALWAYS,
KT
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